Taking it all in

I have been trying find a way to make the holidays less crazy- not successful as there is over a pound of needles surrounding my dead dead dead Christmas tree, most of my presents are not wrapped, my daughter emptied her entire diaper drawer last night, she refuses to stop trying to put her hands in my toilet (ik, disgusting- but my first toilet lock already broke and I haven’t had time to install the second one yet!) and my house is an overall mess.

Yet, through all of the craziness, the holidays are my favorite time. I love the chaos, I love the lights, I love seeing friends and family and giving (and receiving) presents. I can’t wait to pile all of Lily’s presents around the tree on Christmas Eve and I can’t wait for her to wake up and see them and rip open the paper. Even though she won’t even remember this Christmas, this was one of the reasons I wanted kids! I love spending time with family, sitting around a table with wine- or coffee if you prefer and chatting about nothing in particular. I love the craziness of screaming, excited, sugar high kids playing with all their new toys.

This Christmas my goal is to be thankful- thankful for who and what I have, thankful for the wonderful people that I surround myself with and thankful for all the things that I have. Oh and wine, I am thankful for wine. I want to take all the time that I can to soak up the love and laughter that will be around me. I find myself often thinking about all of the things I could do better. I could be reading to Lily instead of taking one second to sink into the couch. I could be cleaning the toilet instead of just shutting the door so Lily doesn’t stick her hand in it. Could have, should have, would have, I want to forget it all and just absorb. I want to take the extra time to speak to the ones I don’t speak to often and to genuinely enjoy myself.

Now I know some of you are thinking, yeah right- I am going to be running out of my house Christmas morning screaming at my husband not to forget the dang pie. But that is what I will try not to do, try not to yell and to get upset over things that just don’t matter. I will be cooking next Saturday for my family, so we will see if this can truly be pulled off. I didn’t say anything about surviving without wine J I will talk more about it soon, but this train of thought, this bone I have been chewing on kind of leads into my New Year’s Resolution, so check back for that post!

Happy Holidays and thank you for listening!